THE CORE, Shawna Ray thoughts for today

I have been there where she is

Since I've loved and lost and lived

Made and birthed and raised the kids

Still have dreams

Life has changed my heart and mind

My body has worn in time

I can see and feel your eyes

Wandering

I will not compete with a younger me

What is underneith is divine

You get what you see, full transparency

Trying to avoid the knife

What is at the core

Of what you're longong for?

Some are trying to relive

Glory days without the stress

Finally we have the give

For the take

There's a world I want to see

Will you share it all with me?

Continue learning, growing

Please don't trade

I will not compete with a younger me

What is underneith is divine

You get what you see, full transparency

Trying to avoid the knife

What is at the core

Of what you're longong for?

I'm conserving all my energy

On what matters most in life

All the pety and the surface things

Will not steal away my time

Live and laugh and breathe, share your thoughts and dreams

With the ones who need your love

More aware we grow and evolve to be

At a higher consciousness

Getting to the core

Forward we explore

We cannot go back

Onward and upward

Let go of regret

Value and worth

Insight and presence

Peace in the knowing

Sharing and giving

All that we've learned

Getting to the core

Of what we're longing for

Shawna Ray, thoughts for today

ASAP by Shawna Ray, inspired by John Mayer

(Woke up at 5 am and read this post on John Mayer's Instagram story. This was my response that flowed from there ... Disclaimer if you listen to the audio note: This is me laying in bed singing into my phone memo to remember the tune that came with the muse - thinking noone will ever hear it. But this is the only thing that does come easy for me and I don't mind sharing the real and raw first draft, as it is if there's the slightest chance he'll see it and come play guitar on one of the songs he has inspired)

I get a drift on by awareness
They say what's easy don't stay long
And what last long will not come easy
Well I am soft, but I am strong
Mm hmm

ASAP
I need you to
Come here and see me
I'm horny babe
ASAP
Is not soon enough
Not soon enough
Not soon enough

I have to watch you pour your heart out
For everyone - you're still alone
While I am working and I'm longing
I think it's time we found the one
Mm hmm

ASAP
I need to
Come here and see me
I'm horny babe
ASAP
Is not soon enough
Not soon enough
Not soon enough

I've been looking to feel love
Love keeps looking away
I've been waiting to meet you
Ready for the heartbreak?
Why not?

ASAP
I need to
Come here and see me
I'm horny babe
ASAP
Is not soon enough
Not soon enough
Not soon enough

- shawna ray, today

#johnmayer #johnmayernews #asap #music #newmusic #shawnaray 

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More to Learn

I have always known
Open to the muse and sing along
Feeling in the flow
Hear the music playing a new song

Dancing on the red rocks
Crowd is on the lawn
You are moving with me
Never be alone
Knowing what we've always known
There is always more to learn
Knowing what we've always known
There is always more... 

We will be okay
Journey from the past into the now
Seek to understand
Light is pouring down around cloud

Dancing on the red rocks
Crowd is on the lawn
You are moving with me
We're never alone
Knowing what we've always known
There is always more to learn

Time well spent with family
Watch your shooting star
Thankful I am hearing you
Whethere near or far

Knowing what we've always known
There is always more that we don't know
Knowing what we've always known
There is always more..  
Reminding reminding
Remind me what I've always known
Come find me and teach me
I'm learning there is more...

Live, give, love, laugh and learn,

- shawna ray, today 8-5-2017

Morse Code

Morse Code
You know
some kind of Morse code
All this inuendo
Is really messing with my brain
If the message
Is intended
to get to me
Then come and say it to my face

Why do people think its okay
To air all their dirty laundry
All hung up on the wide web
Thinking that your letter was sent

You know
some kind of Morse code
All this inuendo
Is really messing with my brain
If the message
Is intended
to get to me
Then come and say it to my face

I stopped reading long time ago
Deal with what I know that I know
All my real friends I keep close
They know how to reach me directly

However, you know
some kind of Morse code
All this inuendo
Is really messing with my brain
If the message
Is intended
to get to me
Then come and say it to my face

Twitter talking mixed messages
All sarcastic keep talking shit
I can't tell if you're interested
Sort of L you is that F you?
Book of face is nowhere near truth

You know
some kind of Morse code
All this inuendo
Is really messing with my brain
If the message
Is intended
to get to me
Then come and say it to my face
to my face
just come and say it to my face

- shawna ray, today

april 1

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Women Empowerment Movement - How could you turn away?

What did you do to my lady parts? 

You meshed me all up
Cut and paste on my body parts
There's no turning back
Doctors who are meant to serve
Not to hurt - haven't you heard?
We have been through hell and back
How could you get away with that?
Why would you turn away?

What did you do to my farmer's food?
You changed it all up
Modified the genetic code
Our bodies can't digest
Leaders who are meant to guide
Not to lie! Not to hide
Eating poison is suicide
How could you get away with that?
Why would you turn away?

So why are girls not allowed to learn?
How can you hold a modern slave?
When we work hard we should earn!
Equal opportunity!!!

If it wasn't for a woman - you would not be here today!
You do not control my body - every person has a say
We are standing and we're marching - equal work is equal pay

You can say it's all delusion while we've lived it every day
And we need a change
Yeah we need a change
We will make a change!

...How could you turn away?

Shawna Ray original from 12/25/15

I haven't been sharing on this blog lately. Mostly on Instagram @shawnashares. But I have been pregnant with so many song for too long. I have to share in whatever ways I can. Working full time to put my two kids through college after raising them on my own after their Dad left when they were ages 3 and 1 - I haven't had the time or means to release my music as I had hoped. But it's coming soon - in the form of a musical memoir that tells the stories of how each song helped me get through major life situations. This song talks about the vaginal mesh surgeries that put me through hell. Still waiting for reparations from Bard - the makers of the mesh they knew would be harmful and painful. I had to endure several surgeries and proceduces to remove the mesh and have healed over time, while still dealing with nerve damage in very sensitive areas. It's hard to talk about these matters, but much like the modification of our food and the inequality and brutality women face all over the world...I still can't understand how people can get away with such atrocities! We must use our voices to make a change. To stop the violence and negligence that greed and narcissistic power plays produce. I also want to share another song I posted the day of the Women's Marches in Washington and around the country...

SHE 

She marched to the beat of alive - you could feel the rhythm
Looked people straight in the eye - she could see your soul
She sang to explain the pain and so releasing
She would not give up on try until succeed
She is rising from the ashes
She is loving unashamed
She is moving with love's army
Who will break walls peacefully
She is revival
This is revival

She is born with the power to grow a seed inside her
Holding life she can move the tides from day to day
She can feel what you feel - aware, a quiet knowing
Heart and mind, body aligned to pave the way

She is rising from the ashes
She is loving unashamed
She is moving with love's army
Who will break walls peacefully
She is revival
This is revival

We are soft and strong
We are wise and brave
One and one for all
We will break the chains
She is revival
This is revival
We are revival
He is revival
I see revival 

shawna ray, original song copyrights reserved. Blog post on Instagram that day...

I am marching in Spirit today, although I was not able to get off work or make the trip. I march for equality. I march for love. I march for peace. I march for sisterhood. I march to the beat of alive. 

For me - it is not about  fighting hate with hate and angry protest. I march peacefully, in support of an empowering movement in forward motion for equal rights and unity in love. As a single Mom with two kids - I have to be at home and at work. A survivor of abuse, I am an empowered  woman, daughter and sister in support of equal rights for all people - standing for women's lives and rights, black lives and rights, indigenous lives and rights, muslim lives and rights, lgbtq lives and rights, individuls who are disabled and marginalized, immigrant lives and rights, religious freedom, racial unity and love for all people and animals. 

This new administration has personally attacked and offended me and millions. This is a multifaceted movement in a multicultural world calling for change. 

I might not agree with all of the statements the women made on this day or what they stand for. But I stand for the rights of ALL women and am inspired to also share my story. I am empowered seeing this revival of women and quality men who support equality - rising up...I am with you today and every day. 

👊#girlpower #womensmarch #lovehatestrump #riseup #march #equality #whyImarch #empowerment #she #we #shawnaray #women #chooselove #together #women #womensday 

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Appearing - Shawna Ray, today

Small means nothing - matter of mind
Stars seem tiny while they shine bright
Closer you get - the more you see
Bigger than what is appearing

First impression we encounter
All depends on the observer
Closer you get - the more you reach
Deeper than what is appearing

Time and growth, like a layered stone
At the core and heart of a crystal soul
And the more you seek is the more you'll know
Beyond the surface  

Small means nothing - matter of mind
Stars seem tiny while they shine bright
Closer you get the more you reach
Farther than what is appearing

- shawna ray, today 9-7-2016

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distance

soft blankets curl up

but I can't sleep
what is this power
you have over me?

i tried to say no
if you won't follow
why would I
keep on following?

last on your list
could've been us
you had to keep your distance
watch as I go
finding my own
you'll have to go the distance

why is this a game
you hunt and chase
those who will play
that hard to get

show and you tell
ego is swelled
ignorant don't know
what you missed

last on your list
could've been us
you had to keep your distance
watch as I go
finding my own
you'll have to go the distance

in another life
maybe I'll catch your eye
in another life
i'll have learned not to try

so sorry but i don't know you

so sorry ill keep my distance

so sorry but you're not on my list

- shawna ray, today

Singing into phone memos again...

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