Twisted

I wrote this song years ago but found myself on the crazy train again this week. Added that last part. Passive aggressive is also a means of control. Stop the cycle! Find the meaning. Learn the lesson. Keep moving forward...

Live, give, love, laugh and learn,

Shawna

TWISTED
By shawna ray

What is it with you people who abuse?
What is it with me wanting to believe?
That I can change your brain
Mistaking love for need
Think I can be your saint
Without enabling

This twisted reality
Caught up in crazy
Twisted reality
You pull the rug from underneath
And it gets twisted
Twisted, twisted

What's up with this game?
Hiding from bully
What's up with the way
You try to control me?
Why does it have to be
All your way or nothing?
Why do I try to please?
Loosing and falling prey

It's twisted reality
Caught up in crazy
Twisted reality
You pull the rug from underneath
And it gets twisted
Twisted, twisted

What is twisted cannot be straightened
What is lacking cannot be counted
I've been riding the crazy train
And I am finally getting off..
It's twisted reality
Caught up in crazy
Twisted reality
You pull the rug from underneath
And it gets twisted
Twisted, twisted

Time will need taken for healing
Careful I don't do the same thing
To one who is weaker than me
No more cycling on the crazy train
It'd twisted!

(Ecc 1:15)

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Healing

Healing
I am healing
Mind, body, spirit
Strengthening from within
As I am healing
Release worry
It's in your hands God
Take it from me
I am healing
Healing
Some are meant to plant the seed
Some work hard, they're watering
Some are light that's nourishing
The gardener prunes while redirecting
Healing
I am healing
Mind, body, spirit
Strengthening from within
As I am healing
Release worry
It's in your hands God
Take it from me
I am healing
Healing
As the sun brings in the day
Balancing our rest and play
Love is joy with pings of pain
Feeling life and energy
In healing
I am healing
Mind, body, spirit
Strengthening from within
As I am healing
Release worry
It's in your hands God
Take it from me
I am healing
Healing
Breathing in peace
Reviving dreams
I am healing

shawna ray, today 2/13/12
www.shawnaray.com

Trying

I was running on pure emotion
Jump then look for a place to land
I was living on borrowed time then
So reactive, a nuclear plant
Now here I am
A portion of the problem
Here I am
Willing to find a solution
Empty and I'm broken
The inheritance is spent
Here I am
Still trying
I wake up in a state of wonder
What I should've done different?
Every time I come back to lessons
Life is learning you can't go back
So here I am
A portion of the problem
Here I am
Willing to find a solution
Empty and I'm broken
The inheritance is spent
Here I am
Still trying
People are fragile
So handle with care
Life is so fragile
So handle with prayer
To the here I Am
Owning my part in the problem
Here I am
Willing to find a solution
Awakened and I'm healing
The inheritance is present
Here I am
Still trying
And growing and loving and laughing
Here I am still trying
shawna ray, today 1/3/12
www.shawnaray.com

Altitude

The cloud rises, pushing a mass
In front of this cumulus bliss
Deflecting, shades overlap
Pastelic colors move and connect
What do you see up there
As water droplets fall?
Cruzing at the altitude of hope
Cruzing at the altitude of love
Cruzing at the altitude of peace
From the mass in the middle
Heal through to the whole
Time change
Upward, the tall of it all
Highest result will decline and fall
Be careful in your descent
From elevation, ego is bent
What do you see up there?
Celestial celebration
Cruzing at the altitude of hope
Cruzing at the altitude of love
Cruzing at the altitude of peace
From the mass in the middle
Heal through to the whole
Time change
Saturation, destination, realization
No control
Fascination, imagination, illumination
Now let go...

Cruzing at the altitude of hope
Cruzing at the altitude of love
Cruzing at the altitude of peace
From the mass...
In the middle
Healing through...
To the altitude
The altitude
The altitude of change
shawna ray, today 11/5/11
I'm open, Rhythm Ray
www.shawnaray.com

Writers and Fighters

Reverting back to seventeen
I'm screaming 'cuz you're hurting me
The blame is somewhere in between
Not getting what we're wanting

Feelings miss the filter screen
And wounds can be so prickly
I'm overwhelmed by heavy weight
So ready to drop my fists

Because...
Our friendship is worth it
And I love you more than I'm showing
Our history reads like a book
And we are the writers to choose where we want this to go, woah oh

So take the time to break it down
I'm humble and I'm listening
To hear the words you have to say
While holding my responses

Valid are the feelings there
I see it from a different mirror
You ask me and I do forgive
I'm choosing to drop my fists

Because...
Our friendship is worth it
And I love you more than I'm showing
Our history reads like a book
And we are the writers to choose where we want this to go, woah oh

I'm so tired of dancing around this ring
I'm tired of writing dramatic tragedies
Here's to hoping...
Here's to peace - in the middle east?

:o) Smiley...
Our friendship is worth it
And I love you more than I'm showing
Our history reads like a book
And we are the writers to choose if we want this
We are the fighters, choosing to drop our fists, woah oh
Woah oh oh
I like us much better like this!

By shawna ray, today 9/14/11
www.shawnaray.com

Beyond the Scars

He's feening for a friend
She's sexing for some love
He's working to feel worth
I'm eating to feel hugged

And so we miss the mark
We journey through this earth
In search of one who cares
To see beyond the scars

She's cutting for control
He's running for release
She's numbs with alcohol
He's hitting when he's weak

And so we miss the mark
And journey through this earth
In search of one who cares
To see beyond the scars

I don't have all the answers
But I know ONE who heals
I've seen it with my own mess
Where God in time revealed

Meaning through the madness
Wholeness through the sadness
Life that finally makes more sense
In real love and relationship

And so we'll miss the mark
As we journey through this earth
I'll be some one who cares
To see beyond the scars

In the Spirit of peace flowing freeing There's joy in the midst of the pain
Filling the void so we can see
A rainbow through the rain

When we embrace the ONE
When we are loved by ONE
United now as ONE, all in one
Who sees beyond the scars
Who loves beyond the scars
Who made us to be loved
And to love as ONE

Through shawna ray, today
www.shawnaray.com