Equilibrium Love

EQUILIBRIUM
- shawna ray, today

Is my infatuation
Merely a soul distraction?
Pulled by a wind that's waiting
For you to notice me

I want to be in the groove
With you, drifting by
Equal to librium
No less and no goodbye
Equilibrium
Equilibrium

Free, as you are, I'll love you
As long as you're loving
Constant as one, thou separate
Pure as the light of day

I want to be in the groove
With you, drifting by
Equal to librium
No less and no goodbye
Equilibrium
Equilibrium

Reaching reaction
In forward action
Equal attraction
This give and take
We lift each other
Holding our own as
We love and let love
Staying the change

I want to be in the groove
With you, drifting by
Equal to librium
No less and no goodbye
Equilibrium
Equilibrium

Reaching reaction
In forward action
Equal attraction
This give and take

- If you hear music to match these lyrics, please email me at shawnaray @ live.com so we can collaborate. T'm writing this from my phone since my computer died this week. It lived a good life and is at peace now. So please excuse any finger peck typos.

So this image above is art that was submitted in the search for a human rights logo back in 2011. Sorry I do not know the name of the artist. They chose another logo that is perfect.  But I also love this image that reminds me of what I think of in terms of real, lasting love, that is equal and unwavering. This also represents all levels of human interaction, attraction and collaboration. There are certain elements that allow individuals to bond in friendship or work together on a level that allows each person to bring their gifts to the table and by joining together, the multiplied result is greater good and increased value. Every human being has this potential and deserves equal respect. At the same time, there are some who have a certain chemistry or vibration that just seems to fit together.

I have been processing the idea of an equilibrium love, a chemically reactive equivilant. I think a soul mate is not one who completes or changes you. The two remain constant as individuals, though uniting as one. Understanding that all life goes through changes, I have been longing for a pure and unchanging bond that allows two people to love and grow naturally, moving forward together, without taking anything away from the individual.

I have loved to a fault and been loved to a fault. It seems to often be one sided, where one gives more. What I want is an equal. Not someone who is exactly like me. But someone who matches me and feels me. I have no idea what that really means yet. I hope that I will know when I find and feel it. All I know is, I am no longer willing to settle for anything less. I have wasted a lot of time and energy in soul distractions and self sabotage. So I am spending more time asking myself a lot of questions these days. Becoming who I am meant to be. Finding and expressing my true self and finding my own balance from within. That way I will also be open and able to recognize and connect with team and band mates and in this case, hopefully a partner someday to share the journey.

Rainbows from Rain

Artwork by Lojove 

Jump'n in puddles, lett'n it splatter

Haters will hate but it don't matter

Bubbling up I'm saved by laughter

Coming in from the rain

Contrasting the dramedy

Love lights up the sky

Finding rainbows from rain

Rainbows from rain

Happily after dreaming of better

Sing'n along dog days are over

Keep'n it mov'n, pushing the chatter

Out of my brain

Contrasting the dramedy

Love lights up the sky

Finding rainbows from rain

Rainbows from rain

Holding my own pot of gold

Giving to lighten the load

Playing to level the field

Sharing the stories that beg to be told

Contrasting the dramedy

Love lights up the sky

Finding rainbows from rain

Rainbows from rain

Forecasting bright futures ahead

Finding rainbows from rain

Forecasting bright futures ahead

Finding rainbows from rain

Jump'n in puddles lett'n it splatter

Haters will hate but it don't matter

Masquerade, New Song In Honor of Pride Parade

An #ally song for my friends
By Shawna Ray
(Music to come starts out like a ballerina music box)

If you took the time to see
Behind the mask, a weight is carried
Years of haunting, hiding pain
While so afraid to break the tape
That plays inside a mind all day
Speaking lies while saving face
To fit inside the box, ashamed
Longing for love and belonging

Swirling twirling phase
Dizzy from the masquerade
This is a new day
Renovate the closet space
I am coming out to play myself for a change
You will see my face at the masquerade

Please don't take God's love away
I can feel it differently
All are made to be unique
Tried to pray the gay away
The voice of hope speaks quietly
Open arms, The Father is running
Welcoming so Heavenly
Saying, "Let us celebrate"

Swirling twirling phase
Dizzy from the masquerade
This is a new day
Renovate the closet space
I am coming out to play myself for a change
You will see my face at the masquerade

Love, love, love, love
Hold it sacred
Pure love, love, love
Worth the wait it's
Love, love, love, love
So many ways to
Love, love, love, love, love

I am an ally
This is what my friends say,
"I did not chose this!
It was chosen for me..."

Welcome a new day
Renovate the closet space
I am coming out to play myself for a change
You will see my face at the masquerade

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Rainbows From Rain

Jump'n in puddles, lett'n it splatter
Haters will hate but it don't matter
Bubbling up I'm saved by laughter
Coming in from the rain

Contrasting the dramedy
Love lights up the sky
Finding rainbows from rain
Rainbows from rain

Happily after dreaming of better
Sing'n along dog days are over
Keep'n it mov'n, pushing the chatter
Out of my brain

Contrasting the dramedy
Love lights up the sky
Finding rainbows from rain
Rainbows from rain

Holding my own pot of gold
Giving to lighten the load
Playing to level the field
Sharing the stories that beg to be told

Contrasting the dramedy
Love lights up the sky
Finding rainbows from rain
Rainbows from rain

Forecasting bright futures ahead
Finding rainbows from rain
Forecasting bright futures ahead
Finding rainbows from rain

Jump'n in puddles lett'n it splatter
Haters will hate but it don't matter
--

Inspired by Tyler Perry's Interview with Oprah on OWN and my Dad, who taught me to keep looking for the rainbows through every storm in life
By Shawna Ray, today 5/27/13
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Catalyst

Why does there have to be only one way to be right???

Reinvention isn't for the
Ones who avoid intervention
Things that worked then had their reason
Outgrown systems need attention

Now is a new day
Change is upon us
Open your mind wide
Life is a catalyst

Time awaiting steps we're taking
Foresight, insight, rearranging
Moving in collaboration
Listening and re-engaging

Now is a new day
Change is upon us
Open your mind wide
Life is a catalyst

For dissipating greed and angry
Pockets holding change resisting
Anything remotely close to
Fears so deeply rooted in the
Programming that ran the thing back then..
Well this is Now- feel a new day
Hope is within us
Open your mind wide
Life is a catalyst

Old dogs learn new tricks
Good is the new rich
Learning to teach with
Hands on assertive
Creative compassion 
That flexes and forges
The way to a new day
Change is upon us
Open your heart wide
Life is a catalyst

By shawna ray, today 2/20/13
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Brush It Off

Why do you shrink when you think
That you don't have much to bring?
It's all you coming through
Know that we are family
Lesson learned moving on
I am singing you this song
It's about what the mind perceives

Brush it off
And get back up
Own your stuff
But don't give up
Brush it off
Its all just dust
You are a star
Stuck on a shelf
Now brush it off

You have a light meant to shine
And its finally time
There's no way to rewind
From the back going prime
Tell the doubt to get out
That was then this is now
It's a story you can rewrite

Brush it off
And get back up
Own your stuff
But don't give up
Brush it off
Its all just dust
You are a star
Stuck on a shelf
Now brush it off

Hear the ancestors speak
Of the history made
When the chosen are called
And step up to the plate
There is more to this life
And those fears are a lie
You were raised up
And now is the time...

To brush it off
And get back up
Own your stuff
But don't give up
Brush it off
Its all just dust
You are a star
Stuck on a shelf
Now brush it off!

-Mama Shawna Ray, today Nov 21, 2012
Copyright Rhythm Ray
www.shawnaray.com


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Advocate

One of the many things I've learned through these surgeries and health challenges is that I have to be my own health advocate. This applies to many aspects of life where we sometimes just let life happen to us and rely on others to tell us what to think and what to do. Self actualization starts by loving and owning you. Know that you have the ability, wisdom and power within. Let that awareness guide you in then working and sharing with others and seeking the light on a daily basis. This is a lifelong process and each individual has their own journey. I don't know if this is a song, a poem or maybe just a new mantra. But I am living it out and hope to also encourage you to be your own...
ADVOCATE
By shawna ray 10/25/12

I will be my own mirror
I will be my own light
I will be my own healer
Flowing in the Divine

I will be my own lover
I will be my own friend
I'll be the show director
With a changing script

As I live by faith, walking in the way
That I know to go. Growing every day
This is one life. Make the most of it!
I will be my own health advocate.

I will be my own preacher
I will be ministry
I will be my own mentor
Joining fellow colleagues
I will be my own doctor
I will be my own nurse
I will be my own teacher
A collaborative process

As I live by faith, walking in the way
That I know to go. Growing every day
This is one life. Make the most of it!
I will be my own health advocate.

When my gifts need an assist
I'll partner with an advocate
As CEO, research and sow
As coach I will direct and know
To motivate and dodge the hate
Negotiate and delegate
Share life with friends and family
My heart's a home but I've installed security...

While I live by faith walking in the way
That I know to go growing every day
This is one life make the most of it
I will be my own health advocate
I will chart my own health benefits
I will laugh and lift my Spirit
I will be my own life advocate
--
Live, Give, Love, Laugh, Learn,
-by Shawna Ray
#health #advocate #shawna ray #mama shawna #own #grow #live #give #love #laugh #learn #1111 #soul #sunday
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Please Don't Preach

He tried to share his life. I went and missed the mark

Been burned a hundred times, He wasn’t hearing much

(He said), you speak their language, there is a tone I sense 

All that just seems connected, to one who first rejected

Didn’t understand; Wouldn’t hold my hand

Didn’t show the love I needed back then

Please don’t preach at me

Please don’t preach at me

Love me just where I am

Let me tell you where I’ve been

I will learn to call you friend,

If you don’t preach at me, please

She had her own faith walk, nature with shifting views

I grew to understand what she was working through

Seeking a place of peace; daily discovering

Questioning the things that hypocrites release

You who throw a stone, hey what's with all the judging?

Please don’t preach at me

Please don’t preach at me

Love me just where I am

Let me tell you where I’ve been

I will learn to call you friend,

If you don’t preach at me, please

Each journey is its own. Don’t try to put a notch on your belt

This pain goes far and deep. Respect the time and need for healing

Please don’t preach at me

Please don’t preach at me

Love me just where I am

Let me tell you where I’ve been

I will learn to call you friend,

If you don’t preach at me, please

Let life speak, let love speak, let hope speak to those who are listening

Let life seek, let love seek, let hope seek those who are seeking

Open to see all God’s children connecting

Don’t be condescending if you want to pray for me

I'm a fellow traveler; willing to share this journey

Conversate and contemplate, I’ll learn from you, you learn from me

But please, please, please don’t preach

by shawna ray, this was written on 4-22-05 but is a remindable thought for today

Miraculous

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle." - Albert Einstein

Where is this road leading?
What do you have for me?
Find myself on my knees asking why?
So many variables
Juggling too many balls
Will this work for the good? Seek and find...

Everyday miracles
Nothing is impossible
When I watch one door close
I believe there's something more
Miraculous
Miraculous

Lead me into your will
I'll follow and be still
Even as storms will come I see your hand
Calming the raging sea
Arms open beckoning
Walk on the water with me, you can stand...

Everyday miracles
Nothing is impossible
When I watch one door close
I believe there's something more
Miraculous
Miraculous

Look for the rainbows in the rain
Come expecting healing through pain
Being rich has nothing to do with money
I can say that I have seen...

Everyday miracles
Nothing is impossible
When I watch one door close
I believe there's something more
Miraculous
Miraculous

Let God blow your mind
Seek and you will find...
Miraculous
Miraculous

shawna ray 8-9-12


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Dig In

"If I step on your toes, maybe it's just because you refuse to dance." - Shawna Ray

This heavy load has been thrown in my lap
And a part of me laughs
Should've seen this coming
I still don't know what I should do next?
Throw my hands what the heck?
Well I'm not the one to give up like that!

Dig in, dig in
Do what I can
Dig in dig in
Look for the good
Dig in, dig in
Keep on moving
The road won't end
As long as you can turn
And wake up to see the sun rise again

With all this crap, there's a pony somewhere
I will find it I swear
Diamonds come from coal -right?
It might be rough but I'm finding my way
At the end of the day
I can hold my head up high and say I tried

Dig in, dig in
Do what I can
Dig in dig in
Look for the good
Dig in, dig in
Keep on moving
The road won't end
As long as you can turn
And wake up to see the lesson you learned

Lighten up
Lighten up
Lift it up and let the excess fall away
What you need will stay

Dig in, dig in
Do what you can
Dig in dig in
Look for the good
Dig in, dig in
Keep on moving
The road won't end
As long as you can turn
And wake up to see the sun rise again
See this mess start making sense
When the dust finally clears
And you get there it will be worth it

Dig in, dig in
Do what you can
Dig in dig in
Look for the good
Dig in, dig in
Keep on movin
Keep on living
Keep on laughing
Keep on looking for the Sun...

shawna ray, today 8/3/12
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Turn the Page

Somewhere sleeping in the rain
I've been dwelling in my brain
Heart alone and holding steady
Hurt and angry, throwing blame

And I've been the guilty party
Bidding the rules of the game
Something about you gets me
Wanting to turn the page
Turn the page
Turn the page

There's an artist hidden well
Always pleasing someone else
So obliging, secrets kept
Till the morning shadows left

And I've been the guilty party
Bidding the rules of the game
Something about you gets me
Wanting to turn the page
Turn the page
Turn the page

This next chapter is reserved
For letting go and being heard
This next chapter I will see
Love awake and pardon me

Release the guilty party
Set free the shaming game
Something about you gets me
Wanting to turn the page
Turn the page
Turn the page
Turn the page
Turn the page
What will be will be
See what we shall see...

shawna ray, today, June 17, 2012
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It Is What It Is

It's strange this time
Talking over wine
BB King playing like he's giving advise
You are my friend
And it is what it is
I can't tell my heart who to love, how to live

Ooh ooh ooh
This one is a miss
Ooh ooh ooh
It is what it is

I fell in love
It never seemed to work
Frozen in time with a jaded heart
I'm glad you're here
I love you my dear
Brother and sister with a hug at the door

Ooh ooh ooh
This one is a miss
Ooh ooh ooh
It is what it is

I cannot imagine you not in my life

But it's missing that thing, you know that we've tried

You deserve someone who will love you like you do

Ooh ooh ooh
This one is a miss
Ooh ooh ooh
It is what it is

Ooh ooh ooh
This one is a miss
Ooh ooh ooh
It is what it is
It is what it is
It is what it is

Shawna Ray, today, May 20, 2012
www.shawnaray.com

Picture of Love (Mom) song Chords and soundtrack by Shawna Ray

Picture of Love (Mom)

Singer/Songwriter, Shawna Ray, Open album, ASCAP

Download song on itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/open/id364506056 

Download instrumental soundtrack to sing it yourself:http://shawnaray.bandcamp.com/track/mom-instrumental

Make your own picture video: 

                 Bb                          Eb                         Bb                   Eb

Picture of love, you are my mother.  We have a special kind of bond.

                   Bb                                     Eb                   Gm                  Cm

You have a heart that cares no matter, so that I can feel at home.

                 Eb                           D                     Cm                  Am

You are the one who’ll sit and listen, with a helping hand to lend

        Eb                        D                           Ab                         F

And now, as we are growing, you’ve become one of my best friends.

                     Bb  F                  C         Eb

A picture of love, a pillar of strength,

Eb                       Bb     F                    Cm         Eb

With comforting warmth and beautiful grace;

                    Cm

Thank you Mom,

                F                       Ab

You have been there for me.

                 Bb                          Eb                         Bb                   Eb

Picture a smile, a lifelong teacher, cheering me to always try

              Bb                           Eb                      Gm                  Cm

You give hugs and won’t let go when you know I need to be held

                 Eb               D                     Cm                  Am

You don’t claim to be perfect, but you love your family.

             Eb                   D                                 Ab                          F

What a gift when you admitted you’ve been learning along with me.

                      Bb                     C    Eb

A picture of love, pillar of strength,

Eb                       Bb     F                    Cm         Eb

With comforting warmth and grace;

       Cm

Thank you Mom,

    F                       Ab

You have been there…

            G/C                 Bb                   Cm                 F/D

For time together with lots of laughter, over meals we talk, (and talk and talk)

            Eb                    Bb                   Cm                              F

Those memories I will always treasure even after you pass on...

            Gm                  F/A                       Ab                          Bb

Picture respect and gratitude; picture my arms wrapped around you;

             Gm                 F/A                  Eb                           Bb                                   

Picture a child saying, “I love you.  Thank you for being there”…

      Gm F

A picture of love,

                        Cm Eb

Pillar of strength,

Eb                       Bb     F                    Cm         Eb

With comforting warmth and beautiful grace;

                        Gm                  Am

I picture your wise, forgiving face,

                        Ab       Bb

Waiting and praying; full of faith.

                   G/C                      Am

Thank you Mom, you have been there

                        G/C                       Am

Thank you Mom, you’ve always been there

                        G/C                 Ab                       Bb

Thank you Mom, you have been my picture of love

Well Fed

I like fresh muffins from the oven with chai tea
These things they make me happy
So why should I feel bad for missing
The mark of a perfect body?
I crave good sauce with spaghetti
And bread just laps up all the yummy
I love food and hate all the judging
Rock blankets are not comforting

If that's what you are expecting
You can keep your perfect pretty
I am laughing and you're gaging
Love and hugs from well-fed me

Is it ugly to be healthy?
I don't get just one way of looking
It's shallow, a plated kind of beauty
Heart and mind and spirit run deep
Agreed that exercise is needed
Be mindful not prone to over eating
I just think we need to be accepting
Each species has a purpose and place

If that's not what you're expecting
You can keep your perfect pretty
I am laughing and you're gaging
Love and hugs from well-fed me

I get that there is a balance
Moderation is the key
But this beauty misconception
Was built by advertising
Surgery and marketing
With Airbrushed models who are starving
This illusion now enlightening
The broken matrix needs fixing

More aware the tide is shifting
You can keep your perfect pretty
I am laughing and you're gaging
Love and hugs from well-fed me

I like fresh muffins from the oven
With chai tea
These things they make me happy

by shawna ray, today 4/28/12
My birthday is in 2 days and I want cake!
www.shawnaray.com

Say the Name

A new song that came out in the shower today on Easter.
For me, this is where Happy Easter comes from.
Please respect that this is my personal faith walk and life.
I embrace all life as one. Celebrate, don't judge our differences.
This is where I share in the moment a variety of Shawna Ray today lyrics...

Say the Name

Sometimes I feel the darkness creeping
As if it wants to trip and steal me
I start to fall but find I'm standing
Firm I have learned that I can speak
To the mountain I say move
To the demons you must flee
To the light I walk in you
To the dawning of new day
Just say the name, say the name of Jesus
Power claimed in the name of Jesus
Say the name say the name of Jesus
I am saved by grace

When I am tired, tempted, lonely
The poisoned fruit awaits, attracting
Inside I know it's not fulfilling
Engage the heart to lead the brain

To the mountains I say move
To the demons you must flee
To the light I walk in you
To the dawning of new day
I say the name, say the name
Say the name of Jesus
Power claimed in the name of Jesus
Say the name, say the name of Jesus
I am saved by grace

Hallelujah
Calling to the children of light
Hallelujah
Calling to the well aware, don't fight
Hallelujah
Calling to revive and now unite
In peace and love, I feel alive

To the mountains we say move
To the demons, you must leave!
To the light we are the sea
Reflecting the dawning
Say the name, say the name of Jesus
Power claimed in the name of Jesus
Say the name say the name of Jesus
Elements received

No matter where you've been
No matter what you've done
No matter what they say
If you are feeling this...
Say the name say the name of Jesus
Love awaits in the name of Jesus
I am here asking forgiveness
Face to face with Spirit within us
Power claimed in the name of Jesus
Healing claimed in the name of Jesus
Purpose claimed in the name of Jesus
Say the name, say the name of Jesus
I am filled with grace


shawna ray, today April 8, 2012
www.shawnaray.com

Dry Dreams

All these dry dreams
In the land of bent bones
Simple is kind to me
But there's a craving t in my soul
Thirsty dry dreams
Longing to lap it up
I don't know what awaits me
All I know is I've got to go
From this silence
Calling in the distance
Waking up I listen
To the song bird sing
I am streaming
But the outlets are dammed up
I don't know what awaits me
All I know is here I've become
A heap of dry dreams
In the land of bent bones
Simple is killing me
There's a craving in my soul
With thirsty dry dreams
Longing to lap it up
I don't know what awaits me
All I know is I've got to go
I've spent years in this resistance
Hiding far from your rejection
Dodging claims and criticism
I have tried and I have failed
Still the voice inside reminding
There is more that is in store
Art is quenching, I am drinking
Lips are thirsty for some more
Nectar for dry dreams
Healing for bent bones
Simple is not me
There is music in my soul
With thirsty dry dreams
Longing to lap it up
I don't know what awaits me
All I know is I've got to go

shawna ray, today 2/7/12
www.shawnaray.com